17 8 / 2011
I met my bestmanfriend, Hakim, for iftar today together with Nasuha. We’ve been best friends since primary six, but a couple of months back I wrote him a long letter on why it is haraam for us to be so close and that even though it hurts like mad and i cried for weeks on end before sending him the letter, it was the best for the both of us in His eyes.
We met today to celebrate our birthdays which were a week apart from one another. After terawih, we sat for a while drinking tea, and we laughed and smiled and just cherished the short window of time after months of not contacting.
When the time to part came, we smiled and waved to each other goodbye, but it was only later we found out through Nasuha, that both of us cried as we walked away from the other…
“She is the only friend I’ll cry for…”
He was the first to congratulate me when I wore the hijab, he was the first to cry for me out of happiness of my turning back to Him, and he was the first friend who actually stopped sharing certain things with me out of respect of my ‘new’ self and because he didn’t want me to drift away from him.
Ya Robb. Embrace Him with Your mercy, and Your love Ya Allah… Protect him and guide him, and show him the straight path so that he may be one of your beloved… insyaAllah ameen.