08 7 / 2011
Sometimes… Sometimes I still have feelings of going back to the ‘fun’ times; hanging out till 5am at the riverside, or in karaoke rooms, or just drifting in a car going nowhere with my buds etc… And it saps a great deal of strength from within me just to push these thoughts away and try as much as I can to hold on firmly to the rope of Allah.
Perhaps this is the reason why I cannot really move forward; all my energy is STILL being spent trying to remove the past.
Allahu… Kenapalah diri ini lemah sangat dan nafsu ini tetap cenderung untuk melakukan yang sia-sia? *breathes
La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus’aha..
C’mon Faddy you can do this. Hidup di dunia ini sementara, hidup di akhirat buat selama-lamanya. Jangan jadi business woman bodoh yang fikir short term; this trade that Allah proposes for you is the BEST trade. Do you not think?!