Light Upon Light

*breathe

I have not written for a while now; it’s hard to write when there’s no internet in my mahallah and carrying the heavy mac to school everyday isn’t an option really.

Things have not been good. Losing your bestfriend in school, finding out that someone close to you might have autism, not being able to concentrate on anything, sleeping to stop voices in my head… I held it all inside for weeks, telling myself that I could handle it, but wallahi when Suraya and Ameerah forced me to sit down and talk it out (they literally forced me to sit down and interrogated me “Asal muka kau asyik macam sedih! cakap!”, I just felt a huge burden go off my shoulders and when I was chatting with Shahidah, suddenly the tears started pouring out.

Like Kak Lina says, “Enough is enough.”

Here’s to good friends who are always there for you, and here’s to new beginnings.